is watching my daughter sit in front of the door looking through a stack of books while waiting for the neighbor boy, who promised to return, but who never came back to play.

is coming home from someplace and venting by polishing off the leftover pizza.

is not devouring the queso next.

is having a heart-to-heart discussion with Matt regarding something we both feel deeply and passionately about.

is getting up at 5:00 to get ready and make a Crock Pot gumbo before the craziness of my day begins.

is noticing that the rice in that gumbo is a little mushy.

is eyeing my daunting things-to-do list.

is tripping over the exersaucer, bike, scooter, bouncy seat, swing, and other miscellaneous toys.

just is.  It’s been bubbling up a lot lately, but I’m not sure I can pinpoint its impetus.

is dangling off the end of my rope, letting go, and then throwing a temper tantrum worthy of a 3-year-old.

is my daughter’s arms around me.

is feeling my heart flop inside my chest like a grounded fish.

is snuggling on the bed with Amélie and Jack, listening to them giggle.

is taking a 1 1/2 hour walk around the lake with a friend on a beautiful morning.

are my muscles.

is the anticipation of a wonderful friend’s visit next week.

am I about another friend.

is rocking my baby son in my arms.

is bending down to sniff and kiss the top of his head.

is discovering that my gumbo didn’t turn out so bad after all.

springs eternal once in awhile” (from Mark Heard’s “Another Day in Limbo”)

but oh so

am I.

7 thoughts on “24 hours

  1. chill24 says:

    you are not!

  2. Again. You should write that book.

    I noticed “Fear,” and remembered your words from last night. I have the same problem, probably not as frequent as yours, but I know what that flop feels like. I know enough about it that I choose to just ignore mine, but I’ve put many people on medication for it just like you. Some of them have it 4,000 – 6,000 times in 24 hours. Not to minimize yours because I know it can be scary any time one’s heart gets talked about. But if I can reassure you, be reassured.

    Great list.

  3. I loved this post. I love the window into your heart. I can identify with so many of them.

  4. matt says:

    Very nice.

  5. kb7496 says:

    and how was today’s 24 hours?

  6. ooo. if i tried your adverbs with the day i had yesterday….

    i like how real yours is. thanks for sharing.

    if i put mine on my blog i’d lose a lot of friends. (the problem remains troubling but not mine to disclose.) maybe i’ll just email it to you if i can get it done.

  7. Jenny says:

    I love this. You do such a good job of expressing things. And here I thought I was the only one who still occasionally threw temper tantrums worthy of a 3 year old. 🙂

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