running into the pain

I have many, many thoughts and big feelings about our world right now. I am sitting in my woods at the moment, though, and it’s so peaceful.  I hear birds singing and leaves rustling. Sweet Hans, my Great Pyrenees/Anatolian Shepherd, who never lets me venture into these woods alone, is panting beside me, although I…

I hate to hope, but…(Go Chiefs!)

Back in December, Jack tried out for jazz band as a percussionist. He missed the first day of tryouts because he was working on a failed attempt at a sewing project in his FACS class (at this point, literally the week of Christmas break, he had a D in FACS. A D. Because he just…

musings (…on the Chiefs and soup and books and courage and magical doors)

  Hello! It’s been a while. First, let’s just get a few things out of the way. Um, well, most importantly of all, the Chiefs won the AFC Championship.    As if you likely didn’t already know. I was such a happy girl last night while watching that game (well, once we moved ahead and…

A Flicker of Hope

One dark, early morning last week I stood silently at my bathroom window and listened to the croak of one last frog in our pond, the same kind of frog who is the first to wake up in the spring. It seems like so long ago, but I remember when Matt found me one early…

Pencil Skirts and Sweatpants

We arrived home from Winter Park, Colorado yesterday afternoon. We left two days ago, made it to Hays, Kansas the first evening, and then finished the trek yesterday. We were all incredibly antsy those last miles. We were also, as luck would have it, stuck in Friday afternoon traffic. The last thing any of us…

broken beauty

Yesterday a person I don’t know all that well sent me a message that said, “Just saying hi. You’re really a beautiful soul. How are you?” I kind of wanted to cry a little bit, but instead I tried to cultivate a response to him: …Oh, you really have no idea. {delete} …Oh, not so…

My Clothesline in a Snowstorm

  One afternoon a few months ago I was wandering down the baking aisle while grocery shopping. Some guy was standing there examining the spices, and as I walked past him – behind him, mind you – I said, “Excuse me.” He looked at me, smiled, and said, “You know, you have as much of…

20 + C + M + B + 19

When Matt and I were first married, our good friends Neil and Faith showed up at our apartment one day with a gift. It was an extra mixer they had received for a wedding present, if I remember correctly. They tried to make us guess why we were giving them a present. We had no…

The Tale of My New Planner/Promise and Purpose Despite Imperfection

This afternoon Matt and I picked the kids up from where they had spent New Year’s Eve, and as soon as I got home I looked for my new planner. I love planners. I love paper planners, to be more precise, and towards the end of every year, one of my favorite activities is researching…

The Light of the World

The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who lived in a land of deep darkness – on them light has shined (Isaiah 9:2 NRSV). What has come into being in him was life, and the life was the light of all people. The light shines in the darkness, and the…